tEtibe jerrr aku merapu . . !

tinta kabur 

kertas dagangan

isi kepala berjasad kosong

bingkisan segera

dari acuan diari lapuk

itu ini,ini itu,

jari sering ditunding

girang, "tangan erat digenggam" 

hiba, " istilah kita mencium lumpur " 

telinga tuli dari

detak bunyi jam abadi

jarum waktu ilusi ditatah zamrud 

mengejar semu 

di sebalik langit dilupa 

derita dialun nota-nota simpati

tercipta karya agungan dunia

yang di dalam masih berdarah

saudagar propaganda simbol kemanusiaan

tika hitam dan putih

batu dilontar tangan sembunyi

diam di kosmos

bom dibaling isytihar dikalung kuasa

teriakan suara-suara kecil 

sayup dalam kesunyian yang memekakkan 

merobek jiwa naif yang dianggap daif .. 

sfera bertongkat ini 

merah dengan sengsara 

hitam dengan matlamat

biru dan hijau sekadar topeng

sfera bertongkat ini

pantulan lukisan koyak pelukis cedera . .

IF and only IF..................................

If I'm not crying,it doesn't mean that I'm not suffer inside..
If I fake a smile,does it means that I'm a liar??
If I laugh,how can you be sure that my heart is not bleeding?
If I'm making jokes,do you know that I'm actually in pain?
If I'm acting like I don't care,can't you see that I do really care...
If I say "I'm okay", can't you detect something different in my voice??
If I say that I'm strong,why don't you realize that I'm human too...??!
If I say,you don't have to choose me,I hope that you will choose me.......

I'm sorry for wanting you to understand me.............
But.......
The fact is>>.I have no strength to voice  it out...................
Coz I'm afraid of losing you twice..................

............the WAITING.......

...................................

still da same................

no..it's not da same..

it's worsen.....

da hell is breaking loose.. 

and i just stay there.............

...............not knowing what should've be done

just following da no-ending flow............................................

waiting 4 someone.............

to put their hands up....

....................... and say........................

we can't keep living like this........

for someone....

..............to come forward..............

and speak out what i had ever wanted to say.............  

I'm waiting..........

............for one of us.........................

to scream their lungs out............

and  for da first time........

..................tell da truth out.........

reveal all da pain......

......................we keep hiding all time long.......

i'm waiting...................................................................................................

 

yeah...

...it sounds like......

i'm a coward!!!! 

but da truth is.............

..i'm not strong enough without all of u.......

i need you to say what i wanted to say...

......i need you be da echo of my heart...................

................cause....................

you're da one who i grown  up with.............. 

......you taught me to value this life......

.........you showed me the meaning of  sharing..  

you made me  feel like...........

>>......I deserve da world...

>>......I have da right to smile again.......

>>............ I'll never been hurt again..............bcoz you'll always be there wit me....

>>.........I'm da luckiest girl in diz world.......

>>...so secure..................

 

now................................................................

they all are disappeared................................................................................

the strong bond are no longer attach to da string we tied........

 

................and so............. 

I'm waiting................................ 

quoteS!!!!!!!!!!!!

one nite,moon said to me;

if he does not love you da way you love him,

why dont you leave him an d 4get him..

i looked at moon and asked;

does sky ever leave u when u don't shine?????

♥♥♥♥

????Just A Thought????
There is always a little TRUTH
Behind JUST KIDDING.
A little EMOTION behind
I DON'T CARE
...A little PAIN behind ITS OK
A little NEED behind LEAVE ME
ALONE
A lot of WORDS behind THE SILENCE
So try to understand FEELINGS; not the WORDS only..........!!!

in ruins!!

what had happened 2 us huhh???????

are we tearing into parts?????
are we fallin' into pieces????

are we breakin' down???

where da love we had?????

where all da laughings????

 where all da sharing????

where all da days we had???????

where is da ME,U,US...................????????????

it seems now,everything's not right...

it doesn't fall on place.....

sadness,hatred now seems taking da place...........

pretending playing da role...

fake faces are da masks.......

big smiles hide da pain we shared....

and its hard 2 say dat;

pain is da only real thing we're sharing amidst these hard times....

................................................................and da toughest thing to be learned is;

.............................................................we're hiding all da feelings 

........................................................................................................deep to da bottom of hearts...

menyesal,hampeh,original,serba salah..............

adoi!!!aku dah buat somebody marah.......

dye marah................

huhuuuuu..menyesal sgt ngan somethin' yang aku terlepas mention............

x jaga sensitiviti dye...

tapi kan, rasa hampeh lar jgak..

kalau dfikirkan balik,x lar truk sgt pun something yg ak cakap 2...

its juz a joke lorh..JOKE means dat i really didnt mean exactly like wat i said....

im juz tryin' 2 cheer him up..last2 aku plak yg kena..

2 dah mmg sikap smulajadi aku...lau ye xley trima......juz fine...

sbab ssah nk truskan klau x trima seadanya...

i am me...its a solid fact..

original....

 tapi.............

serba-salah pun ada gak...huhuuu..

abg.....SORRY..............

HYEIP3!!!!WAZZUP3???IT'S MY 1ST DAY BLOGGIN'.......

what should i write huh???

hahaa..dont know!!

but im sure,i'll  be learn someday.

.will be makin' a survey on others' blogs....hahaaaa...

>>smile always.. :)